Addictions
04 Jan 2011 Leave a Comment
I have a very addictive personality..if you know me, you know that. Food, games, smoking, shopping.. the list goes on and on!
So I am off all this week for Christmas Break from school and somehow I wandered into CityVille on Facebook. What a mistake! ADDICTED! I do need some down time and time to just ENJOY MYSELF, so that is how I have been spending the last 2 days. (Not while Stone is home or awake though) It’s fun to just enjoy and do something MINDLESS.
I am also finishing up book 1 of the True Blood series. I bought the 1st 5 books in the series as a Christmas present to myself and Nelly. My friend Steph is reading it too. I have watched the 1st 2 seasons of the TV show and the book is a lot different but I love them both!
I also plan on doing some major cleaning and decluttering today…
New Year’s Resolutions:
-Declutter
-Throw away anything useless, ok, anything that has been in the same spot for a long time
-Organize my walk-in closet, get rid of old clothes (this kills me)
-Get on the Dean’s List again this semester
Christmas Break
28 Dec 2010 2 Comments
Today is my anniversary and Dave, Stone, and I are all on our Christmas Break together! Joy! We are watching Easton today and we plan to play lots of games and keep them busy! Easton is like a nephew to me.. he cracks us all up!!
Tonight Renea and Brandon are watching Stone so Dave and I can do something for our anniversary! =)
I didn’t sleep well last night, I tossed, and turned all night. I even washed all my bedding, took a nice hot shower..but no sleep. Our family is going through a rough time and I have a lot on my mind. My brother is getting divorced and it is an ugly battle filled with adultery, deceit, lies, hurt, and anything else unpleasant that you can think of. Plus they have a 2 year old son who is in the middle of all of this. The evil X cheated and some how she has turned my brother into the whipping boy and her into a saint??? We have never had a divorce in our family and it is hard to adjust when you are dealing with someone like her. She just keeps hurting all of us.. my mom is about to have a nervous breakdown and is not taking this well at all. My brother feels like he was never loved at all and a part of a twisted plot that leaves him the bad guy. My brother is one of the nicest and kindest people you will ever meet…he does not deserve this! And my nephew deserves more than this from his mother. So, that’s that.
I have almost 2 more weeks off of school!! Stone goes back next Monday and Dave too. I think I am getting a cold and that sucks! I am hoping it passes soon.
It has been hard to adjust out of my school routine and just do nothing.. or do whatever I want and not have a deadline, grades to check, etc.
I started reading the True Blood series last night, ordered 5 of the books for Nelly and I for Christmas. Nelly is our “adopted son” that has been with us since March. He is 19 now. He is trying to find his place in this world and we are trying to help him get there. He comes from a past that I cannot imagine, no one should have to. He is ours now..
Well, I better get back to the kids.. make some breakfast and try to get my husband up and around!
Everlong…
23 Dec 2010 1 Comment
- It’s been forever since I blogged and the reason is because I started school again in August. My dad has recently become a “disabled vet” and with that came a benefit for me, FREE SCHOOL! It was perfect timing, Stone just started school, and I was ready for a change. Along with change comes challenge and I needed that too! I really loved my job but I was at a point where I could not advance in the company to something I really wanted to do.
- This is my 7th year of college, yes, 7th! I know, I should have a Phd or something but I never fully committed to school before. This time around is totally different. I planned to go into nursing for my RN but there are major roadblocks in that process so I started looking into other things. I started taking Business classes and decided that my major should be in Business Healthcare Administration.
- So I jumped right in, chose my classes, and decided to take 5 classes my first semester back.
- Into to Business
- Marketing
- Finance
- Business Management
- English 211, technical writing
- I decided to take all on-line classes so that I would have more time at home and to be able to help with Stone’s class, etc. I had no idea what I was doing but I caught on quickly, made some mistakes but eventually prevailed! I found this new experience empowering, challenging, an awakening… and nothing like I had ever experienced with college before. I am pleased to say that I will have a 3.54 GPA! There was a glitch with my English grade that I have to get fixed. I call that English Professor the English Nazi. I learned SO much in that class but this guy was harsh and hard. And he went on vacation without grading all of our assignments, gave me a C when my % was a B and like I said, he didn’t grade our last assignment. Grrr This has been stressful since I worked SO hard this semester and I want to be on the Dean’s List more than anything. Regardless, I did a great job but I want that Dean’s List!! I HAVE NEVER BEEN ON THE DEAN’S LIST or the honor roll.
- My goals are driving me hard this time. I have been in healthcare for 20 years, I have done all the grunt work, terrible hours, worked holidays, gave my heart and soul.. and now I am going into a different facet of healthcare, the kind that makes LOTS OF MONEY. It’s not about the material things that I want to make a lot of money for, it’s about providing for my family so that we do not have to struggle financially anymore. I don’t want a better house or better car. I want to be able to take my family on vacations, invest, save, and not have to wonder how we are going to pay this vs. that. I also want to get out of debt as much as possible. By me not working we have made many sacrifices but it will all pay off in the end. I could not have done this without my BIGGEST FAN, my husband! Together we some how make everything work. He is an amazing man who always has my back!
- Stone started Kindergarten this year and I am so proud of him! My little boy has become a somewhat of a little young man. He is so enthusiastic about school, learning, and soaking in everything that he can. He is adored and he is therefore an adoring child. He is totally into Lego’s, the little sets that take hours to put together. He has such patience and diligence for putting his “creations” together. He is also learning to read, it amazes me! Everyday with him is a gift… I love him so much!
- We have a new dog, Shay. She is about 1 year old. A black lab/pointer mix. She is a beautiful and sweet dog but likes to CHEW on EVERYTHING. She is a wonderful family dog, we all love her. We had to get rid of our other dog because he was very mean, aggressive toward anyone but me, and bit Stone badly a couple of times. It was hard on all of us but he had to go.
- I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!
A perfect night to blog…
22 Aug 2010 Leave a Comment
- I am usually easily entertained but tonight nothing is tickling my fancy so I am now listening to music, sitting on my patio, enjoying a camp fire, spending time with my husband, my “son” Nelly and this open page to just put jibberish on.
- I finally OVER DID IT and I am paying for it with being REALLY sick, on all kinds of meds, my whole body aches, I am coughing like crazy… NOT fun.. nothing tastes good but drinks… coffee and pop!
- Coldplay is playing the background, Speed of Sound… Love the relaxing waves of the music and it reminds me of being pregnant for Stone and when I was labor for him… it soothed me and it still does.
- My last day of work was yesterday!! I still can’t believe I did it!! And I still feel like I have to go back in… surreal! My new journey consists of going back to school which I got lucky enough to take 4 classes on line and the other at East Noble one evening a week!! I am going to be a room mom in Stone’s class. I am able to walk him to the bus every day and be there when he gets off the bus. I have dreamed of this life but never thought I would have it. But my dad recently got his “disability” status from losing much of his hearing in the military, this allowed me grant to cover my college all the way up to Master’s degree if I wanted! So I did it, all by myself in about 2 weeks and believe me, it was stressful, time consuming, exhausting… but I AM HERE NOW! I am going to do it and do it well! I am shooting for straight A’s!! I am going to make my family so proud of me! My husband, my rock has pushed me and supported to do this and said he would do anything to make this happen for me! I love him SO much, he always on my side!
- Now as Dave Matthews plays in the background…..beautiful…
- I feel so at ease at that all the hard work we did on the house today!! We all pulled together and gave it a SUPER CLEAN… now it will be easier to maintain… 6 people in a house=chaos and MESSES…
Drama, Dreams and Dedication
01 Aug 2010 Leave a Comment
I finally met my half brother, Jeff. My dad and I went to FW and met him for lunch.. it was OK, what can be expected from the situation? That’s what I tell myself anyway. He is happy in his life that was made before we ever met him and has other brothers and sisters, a wife and a daughter and his own mom and dad. He is very successful and that’s all my dad could hope for and has wished for. We are supposed to see him again this month. He looks SO MUCH like Dane, it is crazy! He is very polite, driven and accomplished.
My dad just recently was given his disable VA benefits since lost much of his hearing when he was in the service. This means that ALL of his medical expenses will be paid for from here on out!! This is amazing because my dad was forced into early retirement about 2 years ago and did not have any health insurance because he was too young. AND we found out that because he is considered “disabled” that Dane and I get to go to college for FREE! We each get $47,500 of free schooling, they pay $300 a credit hour x 124 credits!! This is the BEST news for us, Dane and I are both in jobs that don’t pay us enough for what we do and we have wanted to go back but didn’t know how we were going to do it!!??
So I applied to school, awaiting my acceptance letter, filed my FAFSA on line (due August 1st, WHEW), filled out my VA form and when I get my acceptance letter I send that paperwork in.. AND HOPE I CAN START in August!! I want to get my RN and maybe more. We will see. I might not get right into the nursing school because of my late start but I can take the core classes that I need while I am waiting. I have SO many credits done already from being an MA but I have to meet with an advisor to see what the plan is and what they will and will not take and how much schooling I am looking at. I am going to quit my job, get grants and student loans to live off of so I don’t have to work and not put a damper on my family in the mean time.
Stone will be starting school August 19th, I can’t believe it! So this is PRIME time to start my career OVER again… I will be able to spend more time with him, take him to school, etc. My dreams are coming TRUE! I have been dreaming of a way to do this and just didn’t see it possible until this. Wish me luck!! I am destined for greater things.. and for better pay… I have a lot of knowledge from my 20 years in the medical field, I have paid my dues, done the crap work, did more than I should have to do for the pay, worked along side people with a bigger title that know less, do less and make more… and the TIME HAS COME. MY TIME!
Dave and I have had 3, 18 year olds living with us x 4 months. They were homeless for various reasons and we took them in.. we know it is the right thing to do, but the right thing is not always the easiest thing to do. But we are trying, we are trying so hard to make these boys into men.
My ever-changing life
25 May 2010 Leave a Comment
- Well, a couple months ago I talked about the possibility of finding and meeting my 1/2 brother, my dad’s son, Jeff. My whole family had the same idea, at the same time. We found him and his mother. My dad called his mom and she asked if my dad wanted to meet Jeff and my dad said yes. My dad talked to him last week, Jeff only lives a couple blocks from my brother Dane in Fort Wayne, he is also a personal trainer and owns some Curves fitness centers. They arranged to meet today in FW, Dane and Dad met him, I couldn’t go because I had to work. I wanted to go so bad but I got the whole story when they got done. Jeff is not resentful at all, he is happy and well-adjusted man and has a great personality. Jeff and Dane totally hit it off, they have so much in common! Jeff also has a little girl who is 6 years old. He, his wife and daughter may come to the lake this weekend. My Dad said that this meeting turned out better than his wildest dreams and Jeff kept saying how thrilled he was to have met them and be with them. This is so amazing. I have known about Jeff since I was 15 years old and I have always wondered about him. He is 38, me 35 and Dane 31. We will see what happens!!!
New addition to the family, Dexter
21 Mar 2010 Leave a Comment
I didn’t think that we would ever get another pet but we just did. The wheels started turning a couple weeks ago when a friend of ours got a Basset Hound puppy, Dave got into the idea and so did I. He went to get one but they were all sold. So I looked a little here and there and was not really finding what I wanted and what I did find was too expensive. But last Tuesday I heard on the girls at work talking about a puppy and him needing a home. My ears perked up when I heard that he was a Shi-poo, I had seen many of them advertised on my search.. Shitzu and Toy Poodle mixed, hypo-allergenic, non-shedding, small and great with kids. BUT they were like $450! She told me he was free and full-blooded and her brother and sister law bred him. In a matter of a couple of hours and a few phone calls, he was delivered to my door step! Adorable, soft and sweet! My husband and I love the show Dexter and the name seemed to fit.. and has become his name. We are getting used to each other, poop, pee and smells have been a challenge. Even after we bath him, I can still smell him. We are going to take him to get groomed soon and see what they suggest. He is a great addition to our family, good for Stone and all. He doesn’t run away… he’s a good boy.
Spring and Summer cannot come fast enough, I am ready for some outside patio time!!! STAT!!!!
Coffee is my fuel..
07 Mar 2010 Leave a Comment
- Happy Sunday morning. I haven’t had nearly enough coffee to be witty this morning but I thought that blogging still sounded like a grand idea!
- I am filling my empty tank with coffee as I type. I slept too good last night… know the feeling?
- I am digging The Frey a lot right now, not just the new stuff, everything they have put out.
- I dyed my hair last night, the auburn came out super bright and the dark brown, not dark enough, so I will be retouching that today, have to go get something darker. I like though, it’s funky and funk. Something different to get through these last day of Winter Blues… but I know Spring is right around the corner!
- Had a slumber party on Friday night with Renea, Easton, the neighbor kid Landon at our house. It was fun, those boys are so funny and crazy… we could not figure out where all that energy comes from?? Landon is a sweet kid with a sad story. His dad, Wade and I went to school together, which is kinda crazy. Who would have thought that his child and mine would be such good friends. We only see Landon every other weekend when his grandfather has every other weekend visitation with him. We never see his Dad, Wade. His mother is in jail for meth and his grandmother, our neighbor just passed away about a month ago, only 46! Very sad… but this child still has a BRIGHT AURA around him, is very sweet, kind and well adjusted. With so much against him, he is still a wonderful child. I asked his grandpa if he would ask Wade if Landon could go on vacation to Jellystone with us this summer for vacation, he is going to ask. I hope it works out, the boys really like each other!
- I might be going to The Keys in August, if all goes as planned!! My friend Tricia from work is going to be taking Scuba diving classes with Sheli and Sheli’s group goes every Summer and we may go with them!! That means I need to save money to have a great time! It would be even better if Dave could go too… we will have to see! But the thought of going back to The Keys is amazing to me. I feel like it is home and that we will end up there some day, it just feels right.
- I didn’t shop on line this week, lol
- Tricia gave me the Chelsea Handler book to read, so excited! I have started 2 other books right now, medical mysteries/thrillers, so I have to decide if I will start a 3rd! lol
- Started BIG LOVE series, Season 2 this weekend, have to put it in the mail tonight for Netflix to go back tomorrow so I can get another ASAP! lol
- Aaron is coming to visit soon…can’t wait!
Wednesdays bring me happiness!
03 Mar 2010 Leave a Comment
- I only work 1/2 days on Weds and I always look forward to them! No matter how bad and busy the morning is, I know we will be done around noon and I can escape home! My Dad watches Stone on Weds, so I pick him up on the way home from work and we hang out. It’s strange to think in August, when Stone starts school that I will be home alone during this time. Bittersweet, I guess. Though I will enjoy it too!
- Waiting for my new purse to come, I checked the tracking and it is supposed to be here TODAY.. but the mail man just came and went with no package??? Maybe they will come back later and bring it?? Today would have been perfect, especially if I have to sign for it or something. I want my purse! lol
- My un-named friend from work, who dropped the bomb on me Monday, and I are going out on a girl date tomorrow after work. We are going to have Mexican food and drinks, lots of talking… and figuring out the complexities of her life and her awakening (s)! She is 10 years younger than me and we come from different planets but now our worlds collide. We have worked together for almost 4 years and at first I thought we had nothing in common. She always did the “right” things, went to church, conformed and frankly was self-righteous! We argued about this quite a bit, about our difference in opinions, our upbringing, me being so liberal and her being naive to a lot of things I had seen and the 10 more years on me. From the years gone by she and I have become closer and closer and now I am her confidant, friend and sister as she is mine.
- I am, right now, resisting the temptation to shop on-line…
- I am so happy to have SHOWTIME back in my life. lol I have been missing so many shows. Dave and I started watching WEEDS last night, I think we watched 7 episodes in a row. Stone was at my mom and dads so we just lounged on the sectional and took it all in. It was nice. I love TV, it’s my thing. Movies, series, documentaries… it is, what it is… I’m a couch potato that is trying to be a fitness person. lol Let’s see how this turns out. Balance, right??
- Well, back to Facebook, Bejeweled Blitz and playing with Stone!
Monday…a pretty good one, I might add
01 Mar 2010 1 Comment
- So I come into work this morning and my co-worker who has been on vacation and she shocked the shit out of me with something.. I am still in shock…
- I have been shopping on Amazon, books, work out DVDs, this and that…. dreaming of the camera I really want to buy but is out of my reach right now… and my other sickness, purses. I must have looked for a new purse for hours the other day, finally ended up buying a fabulous (still remains to be seen) yellow leather hobo bag. I want it now!! I don’t know what my deal is with purses, but I definitely have a thing for them and can’t remember when I didn’t!?!? My vices could be worse..
- Back to my work out DVDs…Jillian from the biggest loser is a bitch… but a bitch that has been working my ass out! lol I could barely walk for days and now have to get back into things, more pain… ugh… I am so out of shape and she reminds me of it with every grunt, pull and push… I loathe her! Oh…will I ever be devoted to working out?? I have been on a diet for about 2 weeks, gave up my REAL pop for the fake shit and drinking nutrasweet in my coffee.. this was an adjustment. The food part, not so bad, just cooking healthy and watching my calories. We shall seee… wish me luck!
- I have been shocked by several things lately from my friends… but I am here for them, no matter what! Who am I to judge?? I love them…
- Thinking about dying my hair dark brown for a while, then getting streaks put in it… back and forth.. am I a blonde?? What am I?? I guess whatever comes out of the box and what I might fancy at the time. Love my cut, but the color is hard to maintain.
- Thinking I need some girl time, ASAP
- Missing my friend Steph who is too far away ALWAYS! We talk, we text, we chat on line for hours..but it’s just not the same. So I bought a web cam on amazon today…oh my, I know.. I know… but then her little girl and Stone can chat too and will think it’s super dooper cool! And I got it dirt cheap!
- Ordered my first book in the WICKED series, a suggestion from Jenny, my love… she would not steer me wrong! lol
- I need to start diving into the books I already bought, Medical mysteries and thrillers.
- Stone wanted to watch Twilight, actually he said “Vampire Movie”, so we watched it 2x’s in a row. He loves it!
- Deciding what to make for dinner…
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